In the Gretchen Rubin course about Happiness February is the month dedicated to energy. I have a few areas I have been working on since New Year. I started daily meditation and trying to work on my physio exercises as well as stretching my body. Multiple times per day I try the exercises that I have been given to do at home.
Another thing I have been doing is yoga poses and stretches (quads. calves and hamstrings). I tried to learn to sleep on my back to work on my posture.
Sleeping is a big theme in the Happiness course. I will need to dedicate time and energy to better sleep habits. David started to be nursed again after he stopped using his pacifier. During the night both children wake me up multiple times.
I will try to see if better sleep brings better energy. I think that the time has come to let the children sleep in their own beds. Sooner or later they will be more independent and we will be able to sleep longer.
At the moment when i wake up between midnight and 2 am I want to not check my phone but this is usually a big fail and I tend to check my Instagram and my emails and even start writing a blog post or posting on Instagram. This takes about one or two hours and then I am ready for the last round of sleep. Tonight this last round of sleep was interrupted by the boys. They call their daddy and when i am already awake I try to soothe them so my husband gets some sleep. He has a bigger difficulty than me to find can to sleep.
Sleeping early is very easy for me. I sometimes fall asleep between 18 and 19pm. Sometimes I fall asleep later but I can really feel the sleepiness creep in early. This is good because I get my best sleep very early in the night.
Tomorrow I will try intermittent fasting. I ate at 17:30 today and plan to start eating again at 9:30 am tomorrow. I want to see if this will be easy or hard. We are currently in the mountains and here we get hungry all the time. We also went for a big hike outside so this is part of the reason for being hungry.
Eating is something I have not concentrated on a lot to get better energy. I am not sure if I will change a lot because diets have never worked for me and restricting my eating is not something I want to do. I can image trying intermittent fasting but I guess I won’t stick to it unless it brings amazing results. I really don’t like restricting my eating too much. What works for me is abstaining from certain foods and abstaining from wine as much as I can.
Today someone congratulated me on my recovery. I know that I follow a lot of recovery Instagram pages and I think I am an addict in many ways. My main addiction is wanting to be loved and fear of abandonment. However being congratulated on my recovery felt strange.
Another thing that happened was that someone posted a question on Instagram. The question read whether it felt easy being kind to people. I discussed this with my husband and he said that for him being kind is easy. I am honest when I say that for me being kind is hard. I really have a self-defence urge and sometimes I see people more negatively than I should. I also get aggressive and unkind more quickly than I should. I am hoping to be more kind in the future. Today my son said that he loves only daddy. This stung a bit. But I totally understand him.