I was struggling with a lot of trauma in my life. When I was 30 years old I separated from the father of my two children. I was living in Italy and faced a child abduction trial. The legal proceedings went on for over 10 years. In the process of trying to survive the turmoil I became stressed and faced health and issues like panic attacks and tinnitus. My anxiety went through the roof. I was lucky to find help. Through therapy and research I was able to better understand the implications of the stress on my body and mind. I started to read about health on the internet and change my diet. I became vegan. I trained for a marathon.
I am starting this blog to share the knowledge I have learned by living through a lot of pain and difficulties. I would like to write about the podcasts I listened to and the experiences I made. I think I am a co-dependent who has invested a lot in her physical body to remain fit and healthy. I may not yet have fully addressed my mental health to justify writing about anything other than my journey.
I met people who have helped me take steps (baby steps) to living a fuller and happier life. I am grateful to all the people who have helped and inspired me. To all the broken hearts, people from dysfunctional families, facing heartbreak and fear. To all of you. All of us. I dedicate this blog.
I am ready and I am both student and teacher. I continue to learn all the time. I am now happily married and through meditation and journaling I am getting closer to being the happy and fulfilled person I was meant to be.
I will leave behind the people that have not recognized my worth. I was deeply hurt last year and I am going to overcome the feelings of shame and guilt associated with this. I had people helping me and then stabbing my back, I have removed everyone from my life who was not good for me. Setting boundaries and recognizing my worth have been important lessons in 2018.
In 2019 I will discover myself anew. I have made my 12 Commandments:
1. Honesty at all times (be charming)
2. Seek truth
3. Spread word
6. Heart open wide
7. Emotions will guide you
8. Meet the now
9. Nature is your gift
12. Be you